When we moved to Arizona I unknowingly put myself in a pretty tough situation. I exposed myself to something that would toy with my emotions and confidence; an endless amount of job interviews. I had to try to convince a complete stranger that I am amazing; they want me on their team, they'll regret not choosing me, I will change the fate of their company! Plenty of people weren't convinced, and pretty soon I felt like a failure. I felt unwanted and useless. Now, we all know I ended up with a job, but it took me 6 months of applying for numerous jobs a day and interview after interview to get. I felt like I had been kicked in the gut over and over. It was nice to feel wanted by someone, but let's face it, they weren't exactly going out on a limb by choosing someone with 5 years experience when they would have been fine with 6 months. I'm still working on feeling "back to normal" but sometimes I let something that someone says get the best of me. And when that happens I end up complaining and venting to Jake. He's gotten really good at listening and he's put up with a lot of ups and downs, and just yesterday during one of my frustrated rants he said 4 little words that made everything better.
